Chris Goh

2010-06-12T00:20:00.001+08:00

hi readers ,
im no longer blogging anymore ,
i hereby declare tat this blog is dead ,
pls dun tag me anymore :D

2010-04-18T12:55:00.002+08:00

yesterdays' service was a learning point in my life,
wad pastor kong preach,
was referring to a word call : FORGIVENESS
as u know,
sometimes it's very hard to forgive people,
especially people who once hurt you,
once betray you,
or even snatch away the precious things from you....

like other people said,
to forgive other people,
first you have to forgive yourself ,
and took out a step of faith ,
to forgive others.

our god,
is always a forgiving god,
wad you have sinned,
he will always forgive you without a second thought,
he will forgive us jus as how we forgive others...

yesterday after service,
i had a small conversation with michelle,
she asked me how i felt about the service,
do i have any troubled stuffs,
and did i tell god or not...
so,
overall was a good and fruitful day =D

father,
Your FORGIVENESS stands,
You took me back AGAIN!

2010-04-13T19:56:00.001+08:00

hi guys,
shall blog today bah .

today school was normal?
nothing special yeah :D
then got a small program at reflection hall,
after tat went home le.

nothing much :D

studying rite now ....

2010-04-10T09:34:00.002+08:00

i alomost forgotten about blogging le...
cuz was busy ,
aniyways,
i will jus do a short post on ytd,

ytd went to tiffany's house,
for biblestudy and cgm,
biblestudy was great,
though i still think tat my praying skills arent good yet,
vut overall ,
it was great =D

as for cgm,
we had a 3hour fruitful cgm,
THE ENCOUNTER WITH GOD
was magnificent man!!
and i jus love it :D

i know thru you,
nothing is impossible,
thank you father,
thanks for ur grace,
my sins are washed away,
thanks for ur mercy,
i am cleanse by ur holy hands,
thanks for ur power,
i was born again to serve you eternally...

i wanna pray like u , oh god....

2010-04-04T20:17:00.003+08:00

Today will be posting on two things:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENNY GOH KIM SIA !!!!

sorry for the late post :P
anyways,
im sure u love the present tat me and fiona gave u rite? :D

KENNY BROTHEER!!!
u better read tis happy birthday message im goanna write on here !

To kenny goh kim sia:

Every 4th april of every year,
it will always remembered by us,
FIONA,TRENNA,AND ME!!!
Though tis year's birthday,
onli have me and fiona,
but fear not,
nobody but us,
can replace any friends out there u got,
but if u dare to replace us with other people,
im goanna KILL U!!!

trust me,
lets continously build up this relationship,
no matter how hard life can be within us...
truely,
u do make a difference to us,
without u,
perhaps everything would be otherwise,
though sometimes,
u realli done a great job to make us laugh,
and there's a time u felt down,
and tats the purpose of us,
to be with u at all times,
no matter u r happy or sad,

Together with the 3 of us,
we created a very strong bond within each of us,
whenever i have done anything wrong in tis family,
u always stretch out ur hand to save me,
despite any consequence tat will be done...
through u,
every wrong step i taken in life,
u hold on to me,
make sure i dun fall,
the way u help me,
is far more than i could i ask for...
but not onli u,
fiona and trenna u two too,
do realli make a difference in my life,
so,
wad im trying to say is tat,

KENNY GOH KIM SIA,
NEVER EVER LEAVE ME ALRIGHTS?

2 days ago,
was easter,
our church celebrated jesus's glorious death for us,
every easter of the year,
when it comes to easter,
we will always remember how jesus died for us.

on fri,
i watch the easter drama,
the actors acted out how the process of cruxification,
though is the sound effect,
every whip and every pain tat hits on him,
my heart hurts...

indeed,
jesus did not died for nothing,
he sacrifice his life to save mankinds,
to take away our sins,
and cleanse us from inside and outside.

jesus said tat,
whoever believes in him,
shall not perish but ,
to have eternal life!!
AMEN!!

at the end,
i jus wanna say,
I LOVE U , JESUS CHRIST :D
truely,
u're the 1 and onli king,lord,saviour in my life,
NOBODY WILL REPLACE YOU!

2010-03-31T16:37:00.002+08:00

well,
today school was normal,
just tat i pon 2period of maths,
cuz teacher never come,
then around 2pm,
went to hall see ppl do presentation,
very boring sia...
then go home le...
nothing much to post...

2010-03-29T16:52:00.002+08:00

this morning had a quarrel with my dad again...
i asked him for my allowance,
instead,
he ask me to go work,
and earn my own pocket money, FCUK!!
today my recess is kennybro spon me 1,
i felt so guilty sia...
from today i see,

this word : "MONEY"
really can make u see a human's true colour,
be it ur family members,
be it ur close friends,
be it anyone,
is always like tat...
because of all this,
i felt so listless...
and tired of this fammily,

everytime ask money from parents,
instead of giving me the money,
they scold and scold ....
fcuk....
i jus hope i can faster get the toast box job,
then i got money liao...
no need see my parents face!

fcuk it....

2010-03-25T15:32:00.002+08:00

Today is another day of rainy day :(
jus now at class,
there came a huge thunder roar,
which scared quite of number of ppl,
well,
to me,
i did kena too D:

aniways,
these days realli have to study ah~~
N levels are coming in less than 2months :(
i jus have to realli mug hard~~

and also,
not blogging much these days,
all the best to u all out there having ur N levels :D

2010-03-21T13:41:00.004+08:00

ytd was a FANFASTIC DAY!

lets start off with morning :D
around 12pm i went out meet zr,
cuz he say he wan treat me a meal,
so,
we went to bugis to eat,
on the way,
fiona call and said wanted to meet us at bugis,
so we went to bugis to meet fiona too :D
after tat,
fiona passed me the present,
she was the 1st to give me present <3
hahahaha,
thanks sister!!

after tat,
tat zr gave me a shock sia,
he brought us go eat swensen!!!
OMG!!
ate good food at there,
and also,
had fun=D

This is the ice-cream we ate at swensen :D

after tat,
waiting for kimsia to arrive,
after tat,
around 3plus,
went to meet alof of ppl,
at aljunied mrt,
after tat,
fiona,kimsia and zr,
went to my house to help my parents out,
thanks ur all !! :D

fiona,kimsia and zr they all,
taking my parents'car to the place,
while for me,
i bringing my friends all take bus,
so,
we reached there first,
so we played poker while waiting,

aniways,
i lazy take photo(s) =D
shall move to my birthday cake!

Is this cake nice ?

haha u bet ;D
hahas..

i got quite alot of presents from friends,
thanks for it :D
i realli love it :D

2010-03-19T11:59:00.002+08:00

hmmm...
shall post about ytd :D

ytd went for MJ zone live event,
played amazing race game bah...
quite fun ah :D
even though it was raining,
but we,
E458,
manage to get 1st!!!
muahaha!
tats the CHC DNA spirit man!
after tat,
went to kenny house ton...
play audition all the way....
hahas...

sorry for not having any pictures...
cuz i lazy take pic D:
aniways,
we saw a very er xin de couple ,
at esplanade there de shelter ,
doing "live porn",
is lyk wad the....?
hahas
i manage to take a few pic(s) down,
shall post it to stomp !!!
ok luh,
i know im bad D:
hehexD
shall end here :D

hey my friends,
shall see u all at aljunied mrt 3pm tis sat woh!!

2010-03-15T07:31:00.002+08:00

hi readers,
sorry for not posting these days..
had been busy yeah ,

ytd went morning jog with fiona and kimsia,
at pasir ris park,
after tat,
went to have mac,
then went swimming at tampines cc there...
i realise my breathe was too short D:
then i went to a medium pool,
then worse,
i got leg cramp x_x
aniways,
felt much better ltr...

after went kimsia house ton,
well,
played audition till 1plus,
i cnt tahan liao,
then sleep le...
and now i jus woke up ,
felt quite refresh le...
ltr going fiona house to study :D

2010-03-11T21:06:00.002+08:00

today was such a boring day!!

today's lesson ended at 1.10pm for us,
because we're going to science centre...
it was sure damn boring =.=
nothing is to be done down there,
just eating mac with friends...

these days realli tire me out man!
i just dunno why...
aniways,
these days realli didn get a good night sleep :(
and also,
doing alot of preparation for my birthday..

i didn realli get prepared for this year's things,
realli stressing me out...
oh god...
i think i must realli get used to it le...
tmr is P.O.A common test..
it was quite a late ones...

To someone tat you-know-who-im-i-talking-about:

Let me tell u this,
if next time u got any daiji or some shit stuff,
please dun get my brother into trouble or wad..
he said he was onli helping u in ur studies..
not anything related to ur life!
GET THIS CLEAR!
if anything should happen on my brother,
i will NEVER let u off so easily!

next time u wan any help,
dun come find my brother..
when u need him,
u treat him lyk a GOD,
when u dun need him,
u treat him lyk a DOG,
u this bitch,
better fcuk off far far lah hor!

2010-03-09T17:24:00.003+08:00

hi guys,

as u all know,
my birthday is coming,
preparations have been executed :)

yeah...
so, im thinking of the meeting time,
dun worry,
i will tell u all beforehand,alrights?
aniways,
if u wanna wish me an early "happy birthday" to me,
do tag on my tagboard :)

Re-update of people will be present on my birthday:

1.fiona
2.kimsia
3.zhirong
4.meihua
5.xiangying
6.wenqi
7.elaine
8.qingting
9.rayner
10.renfang
11.shanie
12.huichao
13.kaisiang
14.jun wen
15.haikal
16.amir
17.shahrul
18.deon
19.manlyn
20.kelvin
21.tiffany
22.chengyi
23.clarin
24.zixuan

incomplete reply from these people:
1.kok ann
2.cheryl
3.yong keong
4.glenn
5.kuan kian
6.gilbert

2010-03-07T19:18:00.002+08:00

this is the place im goanna have my birthday party :)
this is jus an update for the place :)
hope u all will like it :)

aniways,
we had know the new place the kingdom of GOD!!
is at SUNTEC CONVENTIONAL HALL!!
To me,
it was an unexpected result,
i tot they would a piece of land to build on,
i wouldn expect we were buying a building :(

tmr goanna start school again...
getting back my mp3 player , hehexD

Thats all :)

2010-03-05T22:31:00.002+08:00

well,
today was the day of the camp...
was quite boring and very COLD!!
kena flu...
but after some time,
i had jus felt better :)
after tat,
went to meet zr awhile,
then go find the girls,
went to beach road there have steamboat,
well,
didn realli alot luh...
after tat,
went walk walk with the girls...

then home sweet home :)

YAY! getting back my W-series mp3 player on monday!!
hehexD

2010-03-03T21:03:00.003+08:00

well,
today was the 1st day of the camp,
at first,
it was damn lame sia...
then coach ask us do weird movement D:
after tat,
slowly,
is getting interesting by abit uh ,
played some games..

i rmb got 1 game,
i enjoy most,
it was to lock each other's arm,
then those ppl will tried to pull 1 of us out,
unfortunately,
i was been pulled out from my group..
i thought it was jus some silly game...
but,
behind this game,
whether u will kena pulled out by those ppl onot,
its a test between u and ur best friends...
from tat moment...
i felt touched T_T

then got a session,
coach yvonne ask us to share thoughts,
i stood up,
then took the mike,
and i said this:

"since secondary 2,
i knew a guy called zhirong,
started to hang out with him,
totally neglected kimsia...
before tat,
alot of said kimsia is a bad influence to me,
i didn believe tat,
in the end,
i realise tat kimsia is my best of all in my life,
lastly,
wad i wanted to say is,
:I LOVE YOU ! , BROTHER!! :D "

after tat,
everybody was so amused by me,
at tat moment,
my brother,kimsia,
was so touched by my words,
he ALMOST burst out tears...
and we gave each other a big brother hug ! :D

hahas,
wad a great day! :D

jus wanna speak out to other ppl,
true friends,
are hard to find...
BUT,
if u realise u've got a true friend,
hold him/her tight!
DUN EVER LET HIM/HER GO OUT OF UR LIFE!

2010-03-02T21:34:00.002+08:00

im here to post some new updates,
well,
new updates are all below here:D

Re-update of people going to my B.D party:

1.meihua
2.wenqi
3.xiangying
4.elaine
6.clarin
7.chengyi
8.kaisiang
9.hermun
10.kimsia
11.fiona
12.zhirong
13.deon
14.manlyn
15.rayner
16.renfang

Re-update of people who still haven confirm with me :

1.andy
2.jiajun
3.xiulan
4.kelly
5.qingting
6.glenn
7.kuankian
8.gilbert
9.shanie

thanks :)

2010-03-01T22:25:00.002+08:00

Today school was alrights..
cnt sleep man!
is so freaking hot in class!! ><
aniways,
went to play basketball at I.S.H,
playing with lots of friends,
after tat,
some unhappy things cork up,
shall not mention it anymore...
after tat,
went to aljunied mac,
with hermun,rayner,weihao,zhicheng,deon,
yingtong,manlyn...
after tat,
went homed with zhicheng,

i swear i fcuking dun understand wad mrHafiz was toking about,
the video he showed us,
i freaking dun understand!
so noisy...

tmr is another slacking day i guess?
still got the motivation camp :(
i dk wth is tat camp ah...
i think im goanna enjoy it :)

Im humblingly admiring u each day,
each moment,
each time....

2010-02-28T21:04:00.004+08:00

Hi GUYS!
Im here to update about my birthday things.

Do take note of ALL this following:
1.NO NEED to wear until very nice.
2.casual wearings will do :D
3.NO SMOKING in my B.D place.
4.RMB to bring PRESENTS :)
5.Food&drinks will be provided :D
6.u can bring swimming attire to swim if u wan.
7.there will be NO overnight at my B.D place.
8.there will be alcohol to drink but limited supply.
9.gambling is allowed :D
BUT,pls dun get drank at my BD place,
i dun wan any mad monkey to make trouble ;D

-----------------END---------------------

because there is quite a number of ppl,
dunno how to go to my B.D place,
i will be meeting th ppl who goin,
at aljunied mrt,
i will bring u all there,
as for the meeting time,
is not yet confirm till further notice,
as for wad activities wil be carry out,
is still not yet confirm,
DO NOT PANIC!
more updates will be coming up ;D
my B.D party will be commencing during afternoon,
around there uh :D

PEOPLE WHO HAVE CONFIRMED WITH ME:
1.MeiHua
2.ZhiRong
3.KimSia
4.wenqi
5.qingting
6.kaisiang
7.rayner
8.elaine
9.LiLing

PEOPLE STILL HAVEN CONFIRM WITH ME:
1.kelly
2.ZhiCheng
3.Shanie

Tats all for the update for now ;D

anything u wanna ask me,
contact me @ 91798705 :)
thanks

2010-02-26T19:20:00.002+08:00

Today seems very slack though,
was panting thru POA lesson,
after tat,
actually principal was coming into our,
chinese lesson de,
but in the end did not came...
so was quite relieve...
so after recess,
slept for the last 2 periods,
but didn went well...
cuz kept kena called by miss wang,
so fuzz up man!
i gave up on sleeping anymore,
so was awake for the last 20mins...
after tat,
around 2.30pm,
went for npcc,
halfway thru,
the weather turned dark,
and there goes the lightning risk signal...
so packed up and went home myself :)
actually wan meet zr for dinner de,
but he went MIA,
couldn contact him...
so bought food and went home to eat...
now,
currently,
watching k.o 3anguo :)

gtgg..
byeess...

2010-02-24T20:48:00.002+08:00

Today finally got back some results,
first thing,
im not realli satisfied with my results...
i pass eng,
i pass math,
i pass conbined science,
but not with flying colours...
but all within borders....
aniway,
finally got a chance to breathe le....
these few days it was so stress,
common test came 1 after another...
i cnt even handle sia....
but still,
i made it :D

i assure myself i wun slack down,
not just maintain there,
but work harder!!
:D

2010-02-21T23:29:00.002+08:00

Hi guys,
jus got a chance to post,
during tis late night,
borrowed lappy from kennybro,
hmmm,
my lappy i let him fix,
since he knows?
aniyway,
tmr got SS common test,
wah...
freaking stress sia....
somemore i dunno how to do sia...
jialat...
actually today wan early reach home de,
but due to some delaying of time,
bo pian,
reach home at 10.42pm...
wth...
now is lyk i sure not enuf sleep de lo...

thank u for letting me gave up on u,
if not,
i would be still tied up on the same place,
i have freed myself away from u,
i know,
hanging on to u,
it does not benefit both of us,
i choose to let go,
thank u,
now,
i have started to walk forward in my life,
aniway,
i will always love you as ur daddy de :)

nights...

2010-02-18T16:06:00.002+08:00

hi!
im posting again :)
today school was alright yeah :)
but slept for 5 lessons...
dunno why this 2 days so tired...
tmr is C.S common test liao..
got three topics to study luh,
metal,air and crude oil...
but i try to summarise it luh...
haha..
then after school,
went smoking again luh,
fiona seems tired...
so send her home first,
then went to kenny house,
which im blogging now at his house,
cuz my comp is not fix yet :(
and my W-series is with Mrs TAY!!!
fuck~,
need parent come and "COLLECT"...
still findin time to explain to my parents...
haii...
sure get scolding de...
NBCB...

today saw fb de horoscope,
was looking at Libra,
is was her horoscope,
and the compability was ARIES!
haha,
felt some happiness within it,
but lyk i said,
i will wait for her !
persevere!!
she is worth the wait :)

gtg byes

2010-02-16T11:43:00.003+08:00

i hate myself,
onli when i lost it,
i learn to cherish it...
why do i always act so slow...
fcuk myself!

im speechless...
no post updates,
till the change of my mood....
i hope she's alright...
ytd night,
i slept at kenny house,
i was unable to sleep lah...
i think i know why i cant sleep,
im not goanna elaborate much on here...
aniway,
ltr goin out with friends,
shall not show any conceived secret here....

aniway,
jus had my septum pierced...

2010-02-10T17:15:00.006+08:00

Hi EVERYONE!!
im here to upload wonderful pic(s)!
cuz today total defence day mahs,
so took quite alot of pic(s) uhs :)

i will show u now :)

Trenna+zhiCheng+me

ZhiCheng+me+MeiHua+trenna

Zhicheng+me

MeiHua(meimei)+me

saleha+Trenna+rashida+Azura+RuoHeng+simiriti

KaiSiang+YuKai+ZhiCheng

Artillery booth by the NS army

MeiHua+kaisiang+rashida+me

hermun+zhicheng+trenna+azura+me+saleha+amil

so much fun yeah:)
but around 12plus,
i was having flu,
then i went home :(
gotta rest :)

haiix...
why always when i wan forget things,
it is so hard to erase....
fcuk !
but when i try to rmb it,
it jus disappear so easily....
my mind always come out these few numbers...

10.01.10......

2010-02-08T18:43:00.002+08:00

Hi readers,
lets blog today bah :)
hmmm,
school okays :)
after school,
my ex and her two friends,
come my school find me,
i told them i not free,
then diedie must come lyk tt...
thn i okay lor...
then i was thinking ,
why she diedie must find me ?
after tat,
my ans is out.

know wad?
they come find kimsia ?
to pierce !
wth....
my ex re-pierce,
then her friend pierce lips,
wah i tell u,
fucking disgusting lah...
pierce le bleed lyk hell...
i see le i have goosebumps siol...
anyway,
its was fun alrights :)
thn send ks home,
then homed with zr...

im goanna pierce septum on fri :)
but abit ex uh...
but nvm,
saving money now :)

bye:::

2010-02-04T21:49:00.002+08:00

Hi readers,

these days im so busy..
aniway,
my studies are getting good :)
im quite happy :0

now,
everyday was lyk a repeated movie...
every morning meet fiona,kimsia,trenna,
ran to sch together...
it was so much fun :)
my life so filled,
with fiona,kimsia & trenna,
they realli made my day...
we four,
is lyk a family liao...
hahs...

nothing to post about le,
so if i got ani events,
i will post on blog yeah :)

byes..

只有失去，才懂得珍惜。。。。。

2010-01-31T22:40:00.002+08:00

well,
today was a great day for me,
in the morning,
went to swim as usual,
thn took a nap for 2hours,
thn meet kennybro at bugis,
buying bag together,
it was damn funny while buying bag,

for me,
i told the person my budget is 25-30dollars,
thn he jus ramdomly grab a "budget" bag for me,
then i was lyk NO?
then another guy came,
i think is the boss,
wahh...
his mouth ah,
lyk a big atomic bomb,
shot me and made me bought a bag!
same as kenny too ! :)
hahas,
we are completely lost -.-
aniway,
i enjoy today :)
after tat went to kenny house slack abit,
thn went homed myself :)

2010-01-30T22:23:00.002+08:00

Today was fine :)
went for cgm and service,
cgm was great at joshua place !
service had Rev Niko,
he was indeed a MAN OF GOD!
omy,
jus received a great word of god :)
felt so fruitful,
aniway,
didn went for fellowship,
went home instead.

i thought i would see her today,
but nvm...
after we were lyk so lost to each other,
i felt tat,
i still love her so much,
i hope today's service,
god will transform her life,
as she was at the same church as me today,
i jus wan her to know,
i didn gave up on her,
im still walking behind her,
preparing to hold onto her,
whenever she's goanna fall...

hmmm...
im so tired...
nights guys,
gtg...

2010-01-28T17:08:00.001+08:00

HooHHoo~!
hi guys,
blogging again :)
im now treating blog as a journal liao...
wooots~

anyway,
today was a long day for me,
time move so slow...
think there's nothing i blogging about bah..
and tmr getting th W series walkman mp3 player le :)
yaY!

hahas...

gtg bye:)

2010-01-25T21:58:00.002+08:00

yesterday,
went to have a drink with bro again,
i tot i onli drank 3 cans nia...
but dk why i jus suddenly become drunk...
i have difficulties going home...
but in the end,
manage to go home safely...
tis morning,
woke up and felt abit of headache...
but its was alright after a while...

me myself is seeing,
the shadow of the old ian...
he's coming back...
im so scared....
im physically tired,
and internal tired...
im so moodless,
dun feel lyk blogging...

宝贝，
这是我最后一次叫你宝贝了。。
我在这想跟你说，
我们再这样下去，
最后还是要做个了断。。。
其实，
跟你在一起的日子，
我很开心。
我从来没有看不起你。。。
我没因你的身世，
而嫌弃你。。。
在我的心目中，
你是个完美的女孩。
我希望，
没有我的生活里，
你会过得很好。。。
但，
我会站在你的世界的莫个角落，
当你需要我的时候，
我都会出现。
再见。。。。。

2010-01-24T13:49:00.002+08:00

in midst of my thoughts,
jesus u show me the light,
when im standing in no wher in darkness,
u shine out a path for me to walk...
i once closed my door...
but now,
im willing to open it up once again,
and i put my all onto ur holy hands,
my life shall be trusted to u...
but not anybody else,
cuz there is no one lyk u so loving,
so caring,and so patiently wait for me,
to return bak to ur kingdom and confess...
6months ago de ian has been dead beneath the earth,
but 6months ltr,
u raised a new ian back on earth to worship u,
im glad to have u in my life,
without u,my life would be in a mess,
without u,i wouldn be saved...
without u,i wouldn be here anymore...

thank you jesus,
my saviour and lord eternally...

2010-01-22T18:14:00.002+08:00

Hi!!
im jus came bak from npcc :)
not very tired though...
Today i was completely moodless to study...
cuz i cnt contact my girlfriend...
im so worried for her th whole day =(

anyway,
she jus replied me around 6plus...
so the ans was she was sick...
now im quite relieved...

jus now on the way home,
was with fiona and nigel,
they both kept demoraising me =(
kept saying im smelly....
who sweat not smelly ah!
wth...

ltr im goin kennybro house ton,
haha!
is goanna be fun=)
now i go take a nap first :o

19days to our 1st month :)
Love eu my baby<3

2010-01-19T17:16:00.002+08:00

Hi guys,

im blogging again as u can see,
i must say,
my spiritual life is getting worsen...
i dunno why....
it happened during th previous service,
after worshipping and praise,
i suddenly felt nothing about god....
felt lyk backsliding...

after since,
i have gone berserk....
im starting to become th "old ian"...
i felt tat god's door has banned me...
at tat point of time,
i was going reckless of anything....
wad should i do....

everything seems to be goin bak to the starting point...
infront of me,
there was no path for me to walk on...
wad i see is,
fog.....
i started to think,
i mean,
all this while,
i been a hypocrite infront of god!?!

omg....
wad a hypocrite i am...
days by days,
i began to feel,
god is walking away from me,
further and further....
no one was beside me...
but alone....

As today u had seen me,
i may look normal to u,
but inside my heart,
it turns into a black heart....
a black heart tat is only darkness in it....
my mind is in a whirlwind...

as things get worsen day by day,
the devil seems to be talking to me...
i dunno why...
grrr....

cuz of this,
my actions and behaviour became a havoc....
wad r the things i can do now?
wad should i do?
is god willing to bring me bak to his kingdom?
OMG...
im so deeply in debt to god....

i have asking myself..
wad th hell is happening to me...
the "old ian" is back.....

2010-01-16T10:23:00.003+08:00

Hi guys,
bringing u some update over here...
actually nothing much uhh..
ytd had npcc pt training,
for some of us,
were doin campcraft thingy...

Today,
got cgm and service,
but unfortunately,
im unable to attend both,
cuz i got a reunion dinner to attend...
haiix...

Baby,
though we jus started to be together,
but im willing to fork out my time and energy,
to figure ur heart puzzle...
every piece makes a difference,
though sometimes i dun really undertand u,
but i will make an effort to do better:)
even we had 2 quarrels in a row...
but looking at another view,
it makes both of us understand each other more,
wad i wan to say is,
i realli love you,
truly from my heart<3

2010-01-13T20:44:00.004+08:00

Hi guys,

Today was a wonderful day at school,
it was RuoHeng and DUA TAO birthday!!
we celebrated dua tao birthday straight after school,
we plan not to destroy th cake...
but some idiots jus did it...
mdm toh walk pass,
she destroy our mood sia...
thn in th end,
did some cleaning up around th area...
thn went to canteen eat th rest of th cake...

Today dun feel lyk goin npcc..
instead went for gym in school,
play basketball with kennybro,fionaSis,darryl and E zuan(dk how spell)
it was fun yeah! :)

after gym,
went smoking...
after tat,
was taking lft down,
but we nearly stuck inside th life sia!!!
th door open halfway thn never move le!!
i was totally freak out man!
but fiona dk press wad...
thn door open!!
wa heng worh...
hahas...

Bused home with kennyBro :)
i wan MUSCLE !!!
i DUN WAN FATS!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DUA TAO!!!

2010-01-11T17:29:00.002+08:00

Hi guys,
im blogging again =)
ytd,
went outing with my stead and a few friends,
anyway,
ytd was th first day i get stead =)
anyway,
had a great time in cinema ;O
shall not elaborate cuz scare ppl jealous ;p

today,
same thing goes,
meet kenny,fiona and trenna,
went to school together...

today was quite ok...
i slept for 1period of math onli..
perhaps realli tired bah...

4th year in MJR...
everything seems the same..
To me,
mjr wasn a great school to me,
dun worry,
im not doin some cross ference here,
tat was my perspective...

1st two years was so bad for me,
shall not mention...
when i reach sec3,
as i started accepted christ,
my life had transformed...
my first turning point started when i know christ...

till now,
im living so good...
anyway,
i had chosen my destination,
TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC!
game&entertainment=)

i wish Poly shall be my next turning point in my life..
wads past shall be th past...
wads future shall be th futre...
but my life never be th same anymore...

today,
i saw a person which i dun even wanna see anymore...
but is bo pian,
he came to take results...
at th first glance,
i tot i see wrongly...
but to a much more glance,
it is really him...
but still,
i ignore him...

In life,
u cnt wait till things happen,
and then start to realise...
i wanted to forgive him ...
but in order to forgive him,
i had to forgive myself...
but I CANT!!!!

nvm...
shall not mention on tis matter...
i hope 1 day,
when im leaving mjr...
i will leave with no fear nor regrets,
but waiting for th anointing of god to prosper me ahead,
of my life....

Friends,

u will never understimate th power of it...
start to think wads between u and ur friend,
no matter is a girl&boy,
or girl&girl,
or boy&boy,
a friendship is a bond ....
being with friends with each other is not by coincidence,
or some other mindsets...
But by God's will...

cherish every day,hour,min and sec with ur friends,
if not,
th day after today,
u might have a quarrel with him/her?
or other things?

Friends,
dun wait till anything between u and him/her ,
thn started to realise things tat u should have realise,
tat would be too late...
for me,
i had experience it tat...
i wish tat for any friends out there,
pls make a decision between u and ur friend,
whether is BGR or friendship,
ask ur girlfriend or boyfriend,
or friend tat is very close to u,
make a promise to each other,
do it for th sake of th future...

tats all i gotta say...

2010-01-10T14:43:00.002+08:00

Hi guys,
its been since a while i touch my blog...
1st week of school was tough for me ...
wed had NPCC,
thur had poly open house,
fri had NPCC again,
sat had church...

phew...
ltr goin out with kennyBro,
hahas..

ytd's sermon was so perfect for me...
haha...
gtg :)

2010-01-05T17:23:00.002+08:00

PHEW*....

Today was the second day of school..
my classroom was lyk at 5th floor?
anyway,
i still can cope with things in school ,
though i got 5-6months left for N level...
err...
nothing to post le..HeHexD

byeex..

2010-01-03T10:20:00.002+08:00

Hi guys,
i posting again..
ytd went for service,
it was great! =)

after tat went to visit bryan,
for some personal reason..

then,
me,renfang,olivia,jacky,
were talking about my testimonies...
haha...
anyway,
tmr is th day school starts,
must work hard yeah ?

anyway,
i got a few resolution to figure out,

BREAK MY ADDICTION BY END OF JAN,
CLOSER TO GOD,
NEVER EVER SKIP LESSON OR SCH,
STUDY HARD,
ENG-B3
Math-B3
Chinese-A2
CONBINED SCIENCE-B3
CONBINED HUMANITIES-B3
POA-A2

I hope by GOD's power,
he can do anything possible for me !

2010-01-01T15:46:00.008+08:00

Hi guys,

FIRST OF ALL,
wishing everybody,

A HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!!!

shall post about ytd bah :)

ytd,
went to 3 places,
first,
went to zone appreciation ,
at parkway parade :)
here are some pic(s) :

Me+Karnex+Jacky :)

Rayner playing psp ?

Th things we made for huizhen they all de performance :)

Ramdom pic :)

Karnex!

Food :)

rayner still playing psp :)

HONGDA!

ramdom :)

ramdom :)

ramdom :)

ramdom :)

ramdom :)

E458 & E507 :)

ramdom :)

ramdom :)

Brandon->Bryan->jacky->olivia :)

Haha,
after tat went down to kaisiang birthday,
saw some friends there,
we play and play,
thn cut cake luh,

omg! wad hermun doin ?

KAI SIANG!!

Kena smash by cream :)

ramdom :)

ramdom :)

after tat,
pei ling came soooo late,
then,
follow peiling go clementi,
west coast there countdown,
well,
met some new friends of hers,
all very funny , haha!!

sea view at west coast :)

ramdom :)

fire works !

FIRE WORKS!!

when the clock strike 12,
peiling's friends were,
cursing and swearing,
instead of saying happy new year?
haha,
th whole night,
we roam around th whole clementi,
quite fun,
we also did alot of stupid stuff yeah!

I hope tis year,
2010 shall be a better year for me yeah! ;)

2009-12-30T21:37:00.003+08:00

Hi guys,
today morning went gym with meihua,
as she is finally free...
thn afternoon meet cheryl,
went to watch alvin& the chipmunks 2,
was very hilarious haha..
after tat,
went to find kk together,
but sadly she needs to go,
so pei her go mrt then send her off..

well,
outin with cheryl,
reminds me when i first met her,
there she was,
so quiet and shy,
we dated for less than 3months,
and tat,
i lost her...

Till today,
we finally had a chance to meet =)
anyway its not sumting bad ,
she realli did changed alot i can see...
hahas...
i realli enjoy going out with her :)
anyway,
shall not eleborate much...

AHHHH...
tmr is zone appreciation!!
i still dunno wad to wear T.T
nvm,
shall ask my mum for opinion ;)

Tats all for today :)

2009-12-28T07:59:00.005+08:00

Hi everyone !
I guess everynody,
had enjoy their christmas rite ? :)
Today,
actually having bs with huizhen at 5pm de,
but realised tat today was the bbq for npcc,
i paid le,
so must go..
sorry uhh :(
anyway,
school reopening soon,
goanna work more and more hard,
from here,

Talking this year,
it had been a very tough year for me,
if it's not for th second chance ,
to promote to sec 4,
i would have been stuck for another year,
tis year,
had happened lots of things,
unhappy and happy stuffs...
anyway,
ppl wouldn always wan to stuck in th past,
but to see th future..
looking at th past doesn make myself grow up,
but makes me look childish...
anyway,
im expecting a better year in manjusri,
i believe next year,
god will something miraclous in my life,
=)

before tat,
attended th last service of th year,
actually,
wad pastor kong said,
he said tat,
there was 1 girl,
whose father was very very very rich,
but despite tat,
tis girl kept stealing at a department store,
but due to america's security,
she has no chance of stealing th things successfully,
but u know wad,
her dad had paid for all th things ,
tat her daughter had been stealing in the store,
her dad and th owner of the department store,
was friends,
her daughter didn aware of this,
so she kept stealing,
thinking on herself tat,
nobody will be able to catch her.
but behind tat,
her dad had paid for her bad deeds..

i think u will be asking me,
wad does this story related to me ?
very simple,
as u know i had smoke before,
sometimes,
i kept smoking depsite having god in my life,
i couldn break thru my addiction,
and i kept smoke and smoke..
up till now,
i realised,
god had paid for the price for my sin ,
everytime i sinned(smoke),
he always pay my debts,
with a merciful heart,
i had been attending church for almost a year,
i always tell god,
i wanna change in my life,
everything started to change,
but jus 1 last thing to be changed,
tats my addiction,
i hope by next year,
i will have breakthru in my life..
i thanked god for being my saviour in my life,
despite th things i done tat ,
he had to pay for it...

so..,
tats it yeah...
dun worry about me yeah..

jua wanna wish everybody,

A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

2009-12-25T09:34:00.004+08:00

FIRST OF ALL,

I wanna wish a everybody,
in this entire universe,

A MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

hahas,
ytd was a excellent day!

first,

we went to butterworth condo,
for a small party,
had some fun games and worship,
aft tat was A&M game,

OMG,
my angel was ISABELLE :0
haha!
actually i dunno,
so,
this is wad she bought for me,

A CHRIST NECKLACE :D

PERFUME ;D

Both was bought from korea,
haha!
truly,
thanks isabelle :D

For,
i bought a one-piece key-chain,
for yao feng as he's my angel ,
i didn took a pic of tat,
cuz i last min buy XP

After tat,
went to expo for a great time,
watched drama and sang christmas songs,
and th whole expo hall 8 was full packed !
wow!
haha!

Reached home at 2am :(

2009-12-23T18:26:00.001+08:00

Hi guys,
im totally no strength to blog anymore,
ytd night,
i overheard my parents quarrelling again..
haii...
when will this ever stop...
this family,
it seems to be breaking up soon...
yet,
i dunno wad to do about it..
im feeling so depressed...
every night,
hear the same thing,
the same shoutings..

im so desperate for god's advice...
every night,
since this happens,
i been praying,
hoping god can hint me something,
a word,
a sentence or,
something..
i realli dunno wad to do...
i know,
u said in ur bible,
with u,
everything is possible ,
why to me,
this sentence seems so cracked...
im not trying to critise anything about god,
is jus tat...
haii,
forget it...

2009-12-20T11:02:00.003+08:00

Hi guys,
dun blame me for not blogging uhh :(
have alot of schedules this 2 weeks..
these few days,
done working at mac..
was quite fun actually,
though is very long hour works...

after tat,
ytd went to church for candlelit service,
it was magnificent :)

though is abit dark,
but is beautiful , isn it?
hahas,i guess,
anyway,
im so looking forward to 24dec CHRISTMAS!!!
I hope tat,
truly,
my friends will come to my church,
together,
celebrate christmas with me and my church members:)

2009-12-12T13:30:00.002+08:00

Hi guys,
shall post on two things bah..
first,
went on Mj zone live unplug at YMCA,
quite boring,
wasn wad i expected...
so went home myself..

Next,
went drinking with kenny bro again,

anyway,
today,
same lo..
go church thn go home...
cyaz..

2009-12-06T10:02:00.002+08:00

Hi Guys,
okies,
lets start from th morning,
went to expo Jerkthai restaurant,
for job interview,
our app was 11am..
when my dad and i reached there,
th boss went out,
WTf!!
thn waited till 1pm thn start interview..
anyway, i already push off th job le...
after tat,
with th time constraint..
i cnt make it to CGM,
so stay at home rest till 4.15pm lyk tt,
thn go expo met my cg...
and,
service was great! ~:)
After service,
didn went for fellowship...
went to bedok meet kenny,
we drank and smoke...
cuz of some things uh..
anyway,
had great time with him yeah..
meanwhile,
so hoping tue would come tat fast,
so i can meet my friends for movie!!
haha...
shall end here ;)
tired....

2009-12-03T13:16:00.003+08:00

Hi guys,
Today actually need go bak school de,
for th last proposal on japan trip thingy..
but i OVERSLEPT!!
thn didn go..
thn now at home rotting lyk a banana..
anyway,
so looking forward to go church sia...
wanted to share my experience in tokyo,
with my CG members..
i bet they miss me uhh?
haha...
anway,
nothing to post uhh..
and here,
wanna say hi to some friends ,
who adapt into ur class next year :)
hope we can get along well yeah..
anyway,
shun bian intro everybody tis 偶象剧：海派甜心：)
must watch:)
is a damn nice show!
if u think is nice too, pls giv a short feedback,
on my tagboard thx:)
if u think is sux,
mind if u jus keep it to urself?

2009-12-01T16:27:00.002+08:00

Hi guys,
im posting second post of today,
currently at home rotting...
jus unpacked my stuff,
tmr got a meetup with kenny bro.
sorry guys,
mind doin my japan trip reflection here?
actually,
after tis japan trip,
i have understand tokyo more,
their history,
way of living,
and school lifestyles..
i admitted i got bad impression on japan,
cuz they invaded singapore based on history.
but now,
i change my thinking le..
for ur info,
tokyo had experience an earthquake,
they weren prepared for tat..
poor thing sia...
anyway,
i did learn alot from tis trip..
for ppl who going to tokyo or other place in japan,
is a nice place indeed:)
after tat,
got a hearing from kenny,
i HAVE PROMOTED TO 4B1 :)
To my dearest classmates,
see u guys next year manx!
i promise next year i wun slack le...
i learn alot these 3years in manjusri..
hmmm...
im tuning in now...
bye guys

2009-12-01T02:01:00.002+08:00

hi,
my beloved readers,
im back from tokyo : )
it is veri fun place manx!
hmmm..
actually wan upload photos de,
but too many le..
if u wanna see,
ask from me yeah?
hmmm...
nice trip it is..
anyway jus reached home,
soooo tired after taking a 7hour plane flight...
phew...
goanna rest well :)
see yeah guys..

2009-11-24T10:07:00.002+08:00

Hi readers,
i was staying at home these few days,
busy packing my stuff to japan trip,
yes,
tonight im flyin off yeah..
I FUCKING MISS U ALL GUYS !!
So,
lets meet up when bak okays!
most of u would be asking when im bak rite?
i will be bak on 30nov 1am++,
bet u all were still in lalaland bah?
hahas...
nothing to post le..
okays..
miss u guys okay!!

2009-11-22T19:22:00.008+08:00

(My CG were playing volleyball?)

Wad were they looking at?
where's th volleyball?

enjoying themselves bah?

Hi Readers!
Im bak from MJ zone BBQ party at sentosa!
Today was a gathering of 100 over ppl !
hmmm..
Had alot of funs and craps :)
we had games lyk:
A&M games,
Group games,
volleyballs,
tail-grabbing games,
captain's planet game,
waterbomb games and,
etc...
Also,
had lunch over there...
so,
after tat,
E458 went to watch a nature show,
if u dk wads tat,
after seeing th pics,
u will know i assure u;)

OMG! WeiYee was holding an EAGLE!!
Arent she brave? hahas

see that hawk?
she is 1 damn fierce eagle manz...

colourful parrot,isnt it?

U must be wondering,
wth is tat ape doin on th tree?
oh,she's jus harvesting th cocnuts:0

That was her way of arrival,i guess?

Thats a rock python on that auntie's shoulder?
relac,she was bite and she's LUCY :)

OPEN UR EYES MANZ!
Thats a Adult HUSKY!
CUTE isnt it?

After tat,
didn follow michelle they all watch '2012',
homed with weiyee,huichao&brandon...

2009-11-20T15:24:00.002+08:00

HI readers~!
HMM..
Im fine now okays!
Now,
currently at ks house, hehe:)
i felt so relax manx!
i freed from friends'problem...
hmm..
looking forward for MJ zone BBQ at sentosa!!
And,
24NOV i leaving SG for 7D6N!!
30NOV,ard 12am++ reach SG...
ANYBODY SENDING OFF AT AIRPORT??
PLEASE SMS ME,THANKS:)
UR PRESENCE WILL BE APPREACIATED BY ME ;)
PLS,
Im goin for educational trip,
not PLAYPLAY -.-
hmmm..
My last day will be shopping manx!!
wooohooo..
so guys,
tis r all my schedule for november:)
about December,
will be review after i come bak..
so,
seeyas,
byes..

2009-11-19T19:47:00.003+08:00

HEY ASS,
If u Tink my fcuking selfish over here,
continue have ur tat childish mind of urs!!
U always tink of ur own perspective...
have u ever open ur mind??
or too rusty?
wadever okay!
AND,
please stop claiming tat im yours!
spread out,
ppl might tink either of us was GAY!
from now on,
im not goanna be brother anymore...
perhaps jus a neutral friend...
i know,
1 day i will be facing u...
but all tis,
I DUN GIVE A DAMN!!
DUN TRIED TO USE FORCE TO SETTLE TIS OKAY!
STOP TIS CHILDISH THOUGHTS OKAY!
If u tink by using force u can settle tis,
u are wrong!
nvm...
anyway,
in ur eyes,
im always so selfish,
always so hum ji,
always so useless...
Even u came to confront me,
i will never waste a drop of saliva for u...
talking to u realli suffocating...
Dun bother about me anymore...
i will do some things to do to forget u...
Go enjoy ur cambodia trip bah!
if u think im goanna worry for u,
tats ur wishful thinkings...
AND LASTLY,
i will be following bak to ks side...
so,
tat makes u no reason to talk to me anymore....

2009-11-18T22:11:00.006+08:00

Hi readers,
im here confess all my unhappiness...
im writing tis, hope ks and zr could see...
i dun wish hide shit stuff between we three...
firstly, many were still guessing wad happen?
but i tell u, th ans u all wanted will be all here...
lets be open.
tis 3years i had spend in manjusri,
realli made me grow and realise alot of things,
i had to say sorry to dear brother,kimsia...
th way he treat me, is never once ask for reward...
knowing him for tat 3years...
many told me he was bad fluence to me...
i didn tak it to my heart...
but slowly...
joining npcc,
i knew a new friend...
his name was zr...
as we started to close to each other...
i started to neglect ks...
i knew i wasn a good friend to ks...
eventually,
ks disappeared from my life,
as i start to be close with zr....
as time passed by..
zr and i turned more than jus a friend...
were as close as brothers....
for th past months...
i didn bother to contact ks...
i change num,
i didn bother to tell him,
at tat time of me,
i was afraid to face him...
my faith in him,
was gone to th thin air...
his trust in me, was unseen...
slowly,
me and zr were having conflicts,
after some time,
it was always a happy ending,
instead,
we turn even closer,
but as we turn closer and closer,
things get worse...
mayb i didn realli know more,
but to a extent of knowing,
i have experience it myself...
wad i wanted to say now,
i want to leave him alone,
return bak to all his friends,
still,
im 15years old,
he was 16years old,
he got his own life,
jus get ur own life,
forget me instead...
didn u realise tats th reason,
i had been not listeing ur call...
u got ur own business to do...
dun do it for me...
do it for u and xy...
wadever u 2 done, pls dun tell me...
im longer interested...
if u would ask me today...
my concerns are ks and me...
zr,
if u ask me,
which part of ks is better than u?
i could say his everything...
even though ks is not as talented as u....
being talented doesn mean u got more attractions,
when u overdo it,
it irritates people...
i know,i been saying all tis,
u will be veri not happy...
but i must say,
i wan tis to end.
no point i kept to my heart...
if u wanna know wad ks had did for me,
listen,
when tat period of time,
i been with u, i neglected ks..
he didn blame me nor angry with me...
he didn even ask why i dun hang with him anymore...
not cuz he got kimberly...
but, he still continue talking to me,
saying hi everyday in school...
tis year 2009,
i thought it was goanna be a better year for me,
but i was wrong,
it was worse...
everything turn so wrong...
zr,
hope tat u jus forget me bah....
im not a good friend to u nor a good brother...
life is always full of choices....
choice have consequences...
today,
if had a choice,
i would choose not to know u,zr....
but i would rather with ks...
alot of things happen quickly...
i hope, tis time i go japan...
i could jus forget me...
happily enjoy ur cambodia trip bah...
im so sorry,ks...
sorry for neglection towards u...
until today, u still treat me as good as before,
i could still rmb...
i was blaming myself,
whether u would forgive me onot,
but u show it to me...
ur gratitude,
i would say, a never ending reward for me...
Lastly, ks, ur change has affected me...
u made me grow spiritually,
from now on, i believe, we will be even better than jus brotherhood...
ks, if u are kind enuf to spare a thought for zr,
dun bother...
things get so worse all cuz of me...
my hesitation and picky-minded of me...
causing th situation now to happen...
hope th days i spend in japan,
i could forget zr....

AND, ks, realli...
wad i have to say to u is,
THANK YOU!

2009-11-17T15:20:00.002+08:00

Hi readers!
im here to bring u good news!
my comp has fixed!
now i blog often le :)
hmmm,
monday was having eng retest,
damn easy man!
today had math and conbined science retest,
math was hard i must admit,
science was average...
hmmm..
im so scared to retain sia...
but i had confident i wun retain :)
next,
24nov to 29nov im not around sg..
went for a japan trip in tokyo...
not play hor,is educational trip okays!
who wanna send me off at airport,
pls leave BIG name at my tag pls thanks:)
tats all for today:)
byeess

2009-11-14T20:27:00.002+08:00

Hi guys,
its been a long time since i blog...
sorry uh guys..
my internet thingy still in a mess..
so still dunoo when i can blog often or not..
hmmm..
updates of wad im doin these days,
training muscle yeah,
playing basketball with friends,
went to service regularly,
slack lo..
yeah so,
if need to contact me jus call me or sms me?
hahas...
seeyas:)

2009-10-22T15:37:00.002+08:00

Ellos Readers~~!
Im back to blogging :)
currently at kenny house blogging,
i got lot lot updates,
shall not update bah cuz its over?
as for exam,
haii shall not talk about it....
but since exam over le then should have fun bah?
hahas...
my lappy still repairing in progress,
so not using lappy often,
sorry guys...
hmmms...
anything contact me bah:)
byess..

2009-10-08T16:16:00.003+08:00

hi guys, im blogging again! tats rite~ hmms... i was surfing youtube , and saw tis hilarious video, i swear to those who haven watch it, u sure laugh till u shout for ur parents!! so... do enjoy~ :)

2009-10-07T21:16:00.002+08:00

hi readers,
its been a hard time for me tis few weeks..
hmms,
english and mother tongue EOY jus ended...
didn know whether will score well onot..
still left 4subjects,
p.o.a,combined science,combined humanities and math,
well...
did a past year mock exam for math,
came to realise i haven finish half of it,
i can score 39/80 liao...
haha so close...
tat was mayflower sec de eoy paper...
but for my school de,
i didn realli know wads coming out u see,
guess continuing work harder might be th best..
all my friends and ganns,
please do mug hard for eoy...
after exam u wan me go wher i steady,
so yeah do well in exam !
im currently working hard on hist & math,
as tis fri it is th exam,
so i wish all th best to 3B1-ers and other classes too~ :)
jiayou is th word i can say ;(

2009-10-03T23:12:00.003+08:00

Hi everybody~

i guess i didn have time to blog??

hmms..

guys,pls mug hard for EOY okays!

pls dun keep asking me to update uhhs...

i dun wish to distract myself from exam..

anyway,

got some request from some retards,

programs for after-exam:

24oct - Trenna birthday

31oct - MeiHua birthday

24nov- flying to japan(6days) back on 29nov :)

so guys,

please do tag my board often:)

dun make it dead:))

anyway,

went back to hongwen for mid-autumn festival,

and saw a list of old friends:

kok ann

kuankian

alistair

chinkok

octina

gilbert

quanxuan

zheting

hehe,

i had fun last night:)

2009-09-24T17:50:00.002+08:00

hi guys,
im posting again ;)
first,a few dates to rmb:
26 oct - trenna birthday
2 oct - exam

hmm..
currently mugging very hard for exam...
my target for EOY is,
pass math,
pass P.O.A,
pass chinese,
pass combined science.

if i can pass english tat would be better??
yeah..
so not much to blog as i have to mug hard...
wun be seeing much post till i finish my exam..
to all my friends,
do mug hard!
and enter 4B1 together next year! yeah?
hahas
shall end here : (

2009-09-21T20:15:00.003+08:00

Today was a "awesome" day it is....
first,start off with today morning,
went to meet zhenyang see they jam.
thn after tat actually meeting meihua at th bus stop,
but in th end i go to pp with raymond and zr first,
at there slack and eat.
thn renfang call say we late by 1hour liao,
thn we go chiong there...
we rent bike go there since they say they at mac..
reached there see no shadow,
waited 10mins...
still no see no shadow of them...
thn me,zr and raymond went cycle 1 big round first..
after cme bak,
still haven see them...
wtf..
thn waited anothr 10mins...
fuck they duno go wher liao...
thn cycle go find them they say they at wad shop...
reached there STILL see no shadow...
i fcuking dulan liao...
thn finally saw them...
thn i no mood pei them play..
see them jiu dulan...
thn th rest of th time cycle and cycle all th way...
thn homed with raymond and zr...

WTF is wrong with them!
cb damn wad lahs....
i dun blame th boys...
is those ppl de attitude made me dulan...
keep dua us...

thought tat today would be a great day...
in th end wad i get!
all tis fcuk shit!

2009-09-17T19:01:00.003+08:00

Today was th fourth day of school since reopen,
hmmm..

i guess i didn enjoy it?

haii...

ytd went thru some 60 push-ups,

make me tired until i almost overslept th next day...

thn today PE was so tired also...

so jus went home immediately....

and EOY is 15days away from me...

i need to buck up on my math and combined humanties...

haii...

i dun wish to retain luh...

im so damn piss off by some private things...

but nvm...

shall not vent on other ppl....

i jus need some rest will do...

i jus realise something,

getting into relationship is easy or hard,

depends on personal thinking...

for me,

i myself thinks tat is very hard...

pleasing a girl is also very hard...

thn i rather be single...

today i dun think i did any wrong..

she said i was half-hearted?

i know,

she dun lyk sweet words,

instead she lyk actions...

perhaps i should reflect on myself?

but im goanna get things clear real soon..
i dun wan her misunderstood me of anything...

i realli do lyk her...

her words somethime did kill my thoughts....

i guess i have work more harder?

hmms...

evrything seems so hard for me...

or is it i understimated all these small detailed matter?

she wanted changes in me...

wad should i do?

im so clueless....

perhaps showing some care and concern could do better?

i jus wan her to know i realli know tat im serious about her?

im not goanna joke tis time....

i finally know why my relationship had been so bad...

is cuz i always neglect th girl whoever i was stead-ing with,

and thn i never felt anything for it....

i realise im no different from a idiot...

these days i realli went on thinking, thinking and thinking...

she was th 1 who makes me feel tat i can be a good person...

is not tat i dun trust her...

mayb i might need some reflects...

shall end tis post..

2009-09-13T20:51:00.002+08:00

hi guys...
first,
stop being amused about my piercing okay!
is not lyk im th first 1 to do it!
lols...
hmmm..
ytd went to livewire blahblah things...
in th end is th same as CLM...
okayss...
after went to makan with cellgroup...
after tat reached expo around 5pm?
thn started service...
after tat,
went home with zr...
hmmm...
Today went to meet my gan mummy...
awhile onli thn she went for meeting?
me and zr think bugis too bored?
went to pasir ris to plae?
suddenly bad things happened..
shall not eleborate?
haha...
so...
home sweet home sweet with zr?
TMR GOANNA START SCHOOL!!!
felt so weak after knowing....
EOY coming also...
goanna mug and mug and mug....
i wanna go sec4!! T.T
so must buck up!
jyjy myself : )

2009-09-11T14:07:00.003+08:00

hi guys,
its me again...lolss..
anyway im blogging about ytd and today?
haha i guess?
hmm..
ytd went to amk hub with meihua and wenqi..
went there for a job internview?
thn i was so-called hired?
thn work from 11am to 9pm...
during tis process,
alot of fuckup things happen...
our boss is th mediacorp de actor siol...
firstly,
dun think he's a good person..
instead,he sux to th core!!
his temper damn irritating sia...
and his movie hard to sell...
is lyk i took 1-2hour time to sell onli 1 dvd onli!!
but in th end i say i dun wan do le...
thn took my pay and went home with meihua and wenqi...
haii...
thn,
today early wake up from 8.30am..
meetup with meihua go tam gym,
cuz she say it was big??
at there do some workout....
after tat went to buy some snacks at nearby 7/11...
thn go walk walk at century square...
thn took 31 from tam mrt...
thn meihua halfway went down th bus cuz she got work??
for me,
i went home myself yeah...
hahas...
later goin meet some friends..
shall not continue blogging...
take a nap frst and go cut cut my hair,
thn buy cig and go slack with them...

2009-09-09T21:44:00.002+08:00

Today...
ah fei,me,fell off from th cliff le.....
he did a wrongful sin...
wad happen in th police station i shall nt say...
thn go find zhirong to talk heart to heart...
felt better....
anyway thanks brother...
even though jus now i scold u on th phone....
despite tis,
u still come and find me and chat....
sorry for my attitude today....
i will cherish u brother...
and also thanks wenqi for goin out wit me....
hmmm...
today was rather sad for me...
shall not blog le...
i need some peace...
my dear WuHuJiang ah...
do not worry for me,
for i shall repent myself...

i thought 2008 was bad enuf for me....
but 2009 was worsen for me....

2009-09-06T08:53:00.002+08:00

Talk about ytd bah....
zhirong and i went to tam to buy some studs...
and play max tune...
after tat went to block slack slack...
after tat see th time reaching 4plus,
thn we on our way to church...
hmmm...
not much manjusrian came...
so boring...
anyway,
nohing to post about...
shall stop here : )

acceptance is it a kind of forgiveness or insultion....?
i wish to know her better....
something crop up in my mind...
it was not wad i expected...
i leave my mind unattended....
i was so fake.....

2009-09-04T22:25:00.002+08:00

ohwell,
just reached home from a terrified place..
my mum and i went to a piercing shop...
as th shop was my mum's friend...
so i pierced 3 hole at a time!
ohman...
IS FCUKING PAIN!
hmmm...
shall not say le...
so pain....

2009-09-03T20:55:00.002+08:00

i felt lyk lying on th bed....
there's nothing i can do....
why i always find things hard to solve?
is either came too fast or too slow....
now,
i felt lyk im standing at th edge of a cliff....
1 small step i might jus fall....
i dun know why i things get out of hand so easily....
everything seems so hard to me...
i was terrified tat i make a mistake and i might jus fall lyk tt...
haii....
my life was in a mess now...
i jus dunno how am i goanna clear it...
i wanna have a peaceful life tats all...
why i was th one keep facing all tis unecessary things?
i dun get it...
Today i sinned....
i felt im a person tat cnt get over a certain temptation...
i felt so useless in god's eyes....
i thought i can change into a good person by lord jesus...
but it seems tat it didn happen...
i felt so useless...
very useless...
i knew tat god is watching me sin today..
yet i still doin it...
i know saying sorry isn wad god wants...
sometimes,
i jus wanna know wad god really wan me to do...
but i cnt felt his presence to a certain extent...
or was it god trying to test me with tis?
if yes,
sorry i had fail....
life had been miserable for me since sec2....
i already used to it..
sorry...
my heavenly father...
i jus wanna say sorry to u....
im so sorry....
i wish i could understand u more....
haii...

93674, 4 6477 968.....

2009-09-01T19:28:00.002+08:00

Hmmm..
Today went to Iluma with Sisters..
watch "wher got ghost"...
we had real laugh and real scared in th cinema man...
after tat i run off first to meet elaine and wenqi for movie...
watched proposal...
not veri nice but entertaining...
hmmm...
well,
Just wanna say i had lots of fun today!

should i confess to her tat i lyk her?
issit better not to say?
hmmm...
im so confused....

2009-08-31T22:31:00.002+08:00

(behind:Me+JunWen+ChengYe) :)
(front:HongDa+Rayner) :)

From th left:HongDa+Brian+Rayner+JunWen+ChengYe+Me :)

JunWen+ChengYe+MeiHua+XiangYing:)

JunWen+ChengYe+MeiHua+XiangYing :)

XiangYing+Meihua+Me+ChengYe(shy) :)

Left:HongDa+YuYing+RenFang+MeiHua+XiangYing+Trenna :)
below:Brian :)

Left:MeiHua+Elaine+WenQi+RenFang :)

Me+MeiHua :)

WenQi+Me :)

So,these photos taken at Renfang Birthday party :)

Dun u think is funny?

hahaa..

After tat,

Homed with Meihua and XiangYing :)

AnyWay!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RENFANG!!!

2009-08-31T12:28:00.006+08:00

AhDe+AhFei :)

AhFei+AhDe :)

AhDe+AhChang :)

AhDe+AhFei :)

Today was teacher's day+MJR Idol+Aces Day,

hmmm...

AhDe,AhChang and Fiona they won second in group category,

not bad~ Congratz! :)

well...

im not blogging much cuz im off to renfang birthday!

later meeting wen qi ....

so gtg...

HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!~~

2009-08-28T17:57:00.004+08:00

hi guys...
27 aug was our semi final competition...
firstly,
me and hongda cab down to our jamming place to collect th amp..
i swear its veri heavy....
finally..
reached school around 3.45pm....
thn elaine they all say cnt get keyboard and drumset....
i was lyk WAD THE FUCK?
i ask whether is there band teacher we can find...
thn all say go home liao...
tat moment...
i felt helpless...
we move th amp and guitar to th audition room...
and suddenly realise got 1 teacher inside is one of th judge...
and she was th band teacher!
oh god...
she open th door for band room and managed to borrowed..
thn rayner and yi kang helped us with th moving....
when we gt started...
everything turn haywire...
keyboard i cnt hear...
guitar and bass i also cnt hear....
damn it man....
thn drum,i was being complained of hitting veri hard...
so i play softer...
FCUK th mr dilip upside down la....
he 1 of th judge sia...
he duno music de...
ask him go die la...
thn in th end...
th results are out...
we didn managed to get in...
we have lost.....
i didn felt depressed or sad...
i thank god for everything...
thank god tat we got th keyboard and drum jus in time....
thank god for blessing us to get in to semi final....
though we spend alot of money on tis band...
but i think is worth it....
thn cab down to tam again to return...
went to have mac with elaine and xiangying...
while hongda went to "save" yuying in simei...
homed with elaine and xiangying...
so to my band members,
in a competition,
is either win or lose...
we cnt expect ourselves to keep winning...
lose means lose...
no point crying or felt sad...
jus think tat is a experience...
keep looking forward....
dun fall cuz of a failure...
failure is th first step of success...
anyway,
thank you guys ,
i know u all have worked hard for tis event...
lets take tis chance to work more harder...
okay??

consolence and comfort from me.
TakeCares<333

2009-08-26T20:51:00.003+08:00

Hello! Everybody!
Sorry for not posting these days...
having common test(SA1)..
quite a busy week for me tis time...
well..
i get top in my class for chemistry! (17/25)
hahas...
POA i get 12.5/40....
bad ah...
as for history...
shall not elaborate more on it...
a few more days will be renfang birthday...
im still fickling my mind wad to buy for her....
hope she will accept my present...
tmr will be semi-final round for MJR idol...
quite nervous ah...
hmmm...
today had some training on promotion test...
hope can pass my 2nd class drill badge..
and promote to sergeant....
it was so tired luh okay!
anyway a few hours jus pass lyk tis...
went home alone luh...
But im not a loner okay!
so..
i will try to update more these days...
shall stop here...
byee..

2009-08-21T19:30:00.002+08:00

hmmm...
hi guys..
updating some info for u guys..
my band took part in mjr idol for th first round...
realised we cnt use th instrument...
thn we all sing luh...
but in th end we're in for th semi final!
yay...
thn today went for cca luh...
taught sec1 on square lashing and 8 basic knots..
thn go find ah de cuz she seems so worried..
shall not elaborate on her...
as it is personal...
haii...
wad im looing forward is:
next thur de semi final auditon...
watch "where got ghost" with loves ones...
get first class drill badge...
get my work money from dad as he's th one keeping it...
MY JAPAN TRIP!!!
$300 cheque from my father....
RenFang's birthday....
still dk wad to buy for her. hehe
nvm...
i will use my work money buy her present...
haii...
at times we will felt sad for something....
but sadness will cover happiness..
jus lyk th dark clouds will never cover th warm sun...
as long as there still a line of hope...
we should neglect our surroundings...
haii...
no mood to blog le....
><

2009-08-18T22:15:00.002+08:00

Today went to mdm ernie house for social studies project,
went there to ask alot of questions,
hmmm i felt quite meaningful...
now i got a better understanding of malay cuturals..
after tat went to tam mall play with th hero family...
we crap alot yeah...
i will deny tat hehe...
today i felt happy th most...
long time nvr go out with friends lyk tis le...
hmm..
tmr chemistry ct...
i did some studying..
hope can pass yeah...
everyday is a day for us to make it better or worse...
is our attitude tat affects our daily mood...
in life,ppl always talk about attitude..
i know attitude to some other ppl may mean nothing..
but i think tat attitude tells ppl about ur character...
once u prove it others..
whether is bad or good...
it depends on u...
i know i had been talking abt attitude alot times..
i jus wanna tell ppl tat dun look down on this word..
it impacts ur whole life...
u may think im exaggerating but its true...
take it or leave it...
learning is always not an ending story for everybody in tis world..
A-Aspiration
T-Trust
T-Tenderation
I-Inspiration
T-Tenterhooks
U-Unity
D-Determination
E-Equity

rmb tis please for godness sake...

T-

2009-08-16T10:54:00.002+08:00

hi guys...
didn blog much these days..
cuz lazy hehes...
ytd went to indoor stadium with family and follower(zr)
hmmm..
halfway realised xy also coming to indoor too..
thn we inside watching some performance..
tat zr ah...
go on top have some sexual hand-on practical lesson on his own...
come bak thn th smell realli irritated me...
somehow i regretted bringing him with me...
haii..
common test coming...
i was worrying for my POA and SS...
my phy and chem stil can make it...
why my POA and SS so poor is cuz these 2 teacher veri useless...
first thing,
tat miss wang nvr discipline us...
from th day she came into 3B1...
i knew she cnt teach us...
her lesson ah...
ppl sleep she also dun care...
everytime bring lap come teach...
veri sian sia...
as for my POA i think i can make it if i work hard...
cuz time changed...
there is a female lion in my POA lesson...
she is not fierce by her nature...
but makes me wanted to listen to her...
so weird hor...
tats all for my comment on these 2 subjects...
dk my common test will become wad siol...
i fcuking swear i dun wan stay for sec3....
i wanna go sec4B1...
tats my aim...
hmmm..
shall not blog..
i wanna sleep!!

2009-08-14T18:56:00.002+08:00

hi guys im blogging again...
hmmm....
my school still good..
jus knew hansel jus contracted H1N1...
stay at home for 2weeks i guess?
thn common test coming luh...
i haven realli getting started for study...
goanna work hard...
plus mjr idol coming also...
next tue haven jamming...
mus jyjy myself and my band too..
our vocalist canot perform together as she was kena banned from group category...
haii..
in th end we have to sing it oursvelves...
nothing much to post le..

i was waiting for a certain day to come...
a day tat i wish i will nvr forget abt it...
but is there anyting i can make it faster come?
i guess nope....
guess waiting is th onli way...
love th path i walk...

2009-08-11T18:45:00.003+08:00

hi guys..
try update of wad happen to me these few days..
hmmm...
sat went for service as usual..
saw hermun and was quite surprised..
but it went smoothe...
sunday morning went for geylang serai cc de parade..
and we was complimented a good performance..
thn went home rest awhile...
after around 5plus met wenqi as goin down to renfang de house...
thn wenqi and renfang went to marina square or bay i forgot le...
thn i went down to nigel de chalet to ton...
thn reach home on monday morning 10plus...
thn i was fcuking tired...
went to take a long nap...
in th end,
when i wake up is already 7pm plus le...
thn today,actually having jamming..
but elaine and i gt LRC so jamming was cancelled...
hmmm..
shall have it on next tue..
thn today damn fcuk up by my chinese teacher...
she took out my compo read out all th nonsense...
cb sial..
but realli wad..
im writing about wad i know from my neighbour..
thn tell her dun read le,
she still insist on reading..
wah!!...
kena embarrassed in th class cuz of her...
i today sunpa i fcuking hate her...
bo dai bo ji let her make until me no face liao...
haii...
mjr idol was coming soon..
but yet we didn have alot of time to prac togethr...
but jus telling my band members,
if u all gt time,
try to prac yeah...
those difficult part try to improve luh...
i know im not th 1 playing guitar...
tis is wad i can say...
and i didn say my drum was excellent...
me myself also need improve luh..
good luk guys...
so..
tats all of th updates so far...
hmmm..

sometimes when u met difficulties in ur life...
or some relationship breakdown...
dun jus stop there..
find a way to remove th "rock" tat is blocking u...
and move forward...
th truth may be hurting...
but is a matter of when u gt th truth...
time matters.....

2009-08-10T12:22:00.002+08:00

hi guys..
firstly,wanted to wish sg a happy birthday though im late..
and also wish my father happy birthday also..
these days im so tired...
i wanna have a break can!
haii...
anyway,i chged a new phone,
quite nice luh..
starting dk how to use but,
after a few days of exploring,
i understand :D
but still,i dun lyk some of its things..
quite hard to explain here...
yeah so,
hope myself gt a good rest and prepare for tmr de lesson..
haha..

2009-08-07T14:44:00.002+08:00

today was a splendid day yeah man..
went off to sch for th inter-class games..
first round was 3A vs 3B1..
and we won!!..
hahas..
thn after tat 3A vs 3B2..
3B2 won th game...
after tat 3B1 vs 3D..
so shag sia..
we lost...
thn second round of 3b1 vs 3B2..
but different ppl..
in th end..
lost by 1 ball...
hmmm..
went for concert at hall...
i love th dance th most...
hehe...
not cuz they all are pretty but of cuz their effort..
hmm...
after tat went home wit ahchang...
waited for nigel also de but he went missing..
so didn care so much...
today was a tired day for me too...
even though i played 1 match onli...
jus felt tat duno why i tired...
lols...

2009-08-06T15:23:00.002+08:00

hii guys...
today didn go sch cuz no mood..
brought my phone for servicing...
waDthEfucK?
canot repair sia...
my phone spoil lyk shyt liao...
fcuking me make moodless...
tot tat today could get it done...
but is th opposite..
i jus ask my dad abt buyin me a new phone..
hmm..
he said mayb fri or sat bringing me go check out...
haii...
gotta wait longer...
and th ting is,
i all lost all my conacts la...
fcuk it man...
guys,when i got a new phone,
rmb give me all ur number,
so i key in to my new phone...
sorrie...>.<
i now fcuking moodless....

2009-08-04T22:02:00.002+08:00

today was a long day for me luh...
after sch had math remedial...
thn went for detention with whole lot of 3B1'er...
cuz today late for assembly...
thn copy copy...(hand tired)...
thn went for jamming with carzies5..
jam le bused home with renfang,meihua and wenqi...
i went home first while meihua pei wenqi wait for bus...
today so tired sia.....
btw,sorrie ahh if u cnt contact me...
my phone spoil..
went for servcing mayb tmr get bak...
for now,
if u wanna contact me jus by msn or tag me in my tagboard...
sorrie everybody tat cares abt me.. :(
love you'all guys...
and i try to update my blogs since alot of ppl ask me to update...
cuz these days in sch lyk nothing to elaborate abt tat...
but i will still try my best.kays?

2009-07-30T15:48:00.003+08:00

today went smoothe for me..
had pe after tat stay in class rest,
no intention go down canteen eat...
thn suddenly happen sumting terrible i guess?
shall not elaborate cuz is none of my business?
thn after recess,
have 1 period of english thn went for baking enrichment class...
made a couple things thn went to IT room wait for th girls with rayner..
thn meihua cried and i dunno wad happen...
asked elaine but she say is sort of hurting stuff,
so didn ask further....
thn bused home with wenqi,elaine,trenna,qingting...
now happily enjoying my food..
haha..
haii..
wish meimei dun cry anymore...
must happyhappy always! ok?
reply me in th tag pls..
tats all for today...

love you guys..
so wonderful to have you all in my life!

2009-07-28T20:41:00.002+08:00

today school quite okok luh...
especially during english lesson,
azura kp teacher and bully teck lee also,
veri funny and ridiculous...
after tat,
during history lesson,
continue bullyin teck lee sia...
hahs...
after tat went home sleep.
somewher i recieve phone call from meimei..
went to penisula buy a hoodie for her and got another formal shirt 4 myself..
thn meihua went home first..
pei wenqi wait for bus..
thn homed around 7.10pm...
today my $30 gone lyk tis...
sadded...

2009-07-26T20:36:00.002+08:00

hi guys,
didn post these days cuz sort of busy and lazy?
hmm...
these days in sch quite good..
but irritated abt being a newspaper collector....
it feels so suxx....
aniway,
things on studies getting good too...
it seems tat life for me nowadays have been improving...
im so happy with my life now...
i have nvr regretted accepting christ into my life...
if it wasn him,
i would be smoking and hanging out with bad companies..
i love you jesus christ.
and thank you for being my 1 and onli saviour in my life....
if u didn come and save me...
i think tat i would be a nasty guy in my friends'eyes...
a person tat nobody wants to get close to....
and also,
not onli u have changed my life,
i have know how to cherish my friends and loves ones...
i have learn not to throw temper easily and less angry...
God,thank you for ur emornous mercy
forgave my sinns..
cleanse my past with ur river of god...
im willinglly to serve you for eternity...
u saved me...
u have become one of my important person in my life...
wadever wad im goanna do,
i promised i will first seek u...
u played a veri important role in my life..
a role tat nobody can take over you...
i hope by attending more biblestudy...
i can know u more and know wad u wan me to do....
i wan a breakthrough in my studies...
a good future for myself....
thanks jesus christ....
YOU alone in glory....

2009-07-19T19:45:00.002+08:00

hi..
its me again~
of course its me!
lol...
anyway,
today's picnic with E458 was veri fun!
played alot of games by esther and olivia,
play hunter,fire,earthquake...
hmmm..
at first wasnt quite understand th game,
but i figured it out myself..
i love th game which is rabbit and rat(dk spell correctly mahs)
nvr hear properly thn plae th other way round.
quite fun though..
had dinner or rather lunch with everybody,
after tat,
as time started to flies,
me,wenqi and meihua went home ard 5.30pm
as wenqi need go for work...
so yea,
i reached home arnd 6.45pm lyk tt..
actually wanted to stay longer de...
but,
i couldn let her go home alone..
so,
pei her homed luh...
i enjoy today even though i felt shagged today,
by some other things..
shall not eleborate...

i will wait for u till u say yes to me....
u r worth of me to wait....

2009-07-13T20:08:00.003+08:00

我已发现自己已走了不该的路,
我到现在才发觉我已忽略了一个人...
那个人,
是我曾伤害过的人...
但我没想到她却默默地等待着我...
如今,
我发现她才是我该珍惜的人....
是不是太晚了?.....
我想告诉她...
当我再次看见她时,
她给予我的感觉好特别...
她给我的感觉就好象一把钥匙...
已深深插入我心里的锁头...
好象已解开了我心中的疑念..
同时,
让我了解了一些我曾未了解的感受...
当她在我身旁时,
我感受到伤痛与愉快的感觉...
我为什么会这么说呢?
感到伤痛是因为我不成熟的态度伤害了她无辜的心灵...
感到愉快是因为我已发现她对我依然不变的感觉...
我到底该不该去接受这段我曾不珍惜的感情吗....
还是,
等待命运的按排到来呢....
我的心好乱....
虽然,
很多时候她不在我身旁,
但我可以感受到她的存在..
就好象不管我在做什么,
她都知道...
看见她那灿烂的笑容,
让我觉得好惭愧....
总觉得,
她在我生命里,
是理所当然的....
此时此刻里,
我必须告诉自己,
我一定要好好地珍惜她....
不能再把一切当成是理所当然的了....
辛福是自己去争取的....
不是默默无闻地等待着它的到来...
她带给我的感觉,
不仅很自然又很特别....
不管你做了什么样的决定,
我和你的关系是不会改变的...
我很怪罪于自己...
为什么以前我没有好好珍惜你,
到了现在才察觉到你着份对我依依不变的感觉....
我只想说,
你带给我的感觉真的好特别,好特别,好特别.....

2009-07-09T20:17:00.002+08:00

Today is a happy but sad day...
today,trenna,meiqi and me went to GL..
sing at Ktv..
we had lots of fun..
but its meiqi's last day of fun...
tmr will b her 1st day of probation...
haii..
hope time past faster...
i jus wanna say...
even though today it mayb ur last day of fun....
but it not be ur last day of death....
we will be waiting for u...
wish ur probation finish fast...
lots of love from ur bro...<3

小宝贝....
这一切已成了定局...
不必再怪罪于自己...
我要跟你说,
这段路我会一直陪伴在你的身边..
此时此刻,
我都会在保护着你....
你要知道,
你不是一个人...
这段路是由我和你共同走的路...
别再让黑暗的恶魔捆绑着你的思想..
让我牵着你的手,
走出黑暗,
看见光明的灯光...
相信这一切,
不会抵挡着我们的将来...
我是不会离开你的..
就算你对我有多么冷淡...
我继续地呵护着你...
留在你的身边...
照顾你.......
我爱你......

2009-07-07T20:04:00.002+08:00

Till th end...
th skies are still so dark....
my smile has been covered by dark clouds...
my heart has been taken by th rains...
god....
u are my onli 1 whom i can trust my heart with....
i dun trust anyone anymore le....
i jus wanna say love hurts...
i told myself...
im goanna lock myself in th emo world...
wher nobody goanna ever finds me...
and i locked my heart...
nobody touches it...
god...
i yearn for ur healing....
my heart realli hurts...
i should have listened to u....
tis world isn so beautiful as it is....
i realised i cnt face th reality anymore...
i dun have th guts....
roses produces thorns...
roads produces thurns....
skies produces rains or sadness...
i do not dare to touch th skies anymore...

why all tis is happening to me....
i dun wan all tis...
tis is not wad i wan....
wad can i do....
perhaps she dun love me anymore....
i wan blindfold my eyes to continue my road...
wish tat i step out of th road...
fall off th cliff....
not expecting any1 to save me....
tis are all illusion...
i tot tat would be my best ending....
but it wasn....
my heart slashed by th spears of devils....
bleed on th skins of th devil...
my heart surrounded by darkness...
i have completely no place to roam....
no1 to seek of....
left myself in th world...
depend on myself for survival...
god..
im thirsting for u....

我如此爱你....
为何你要折磨自己.....
我真的真的真的好爱你....
我不想放弃这段感情....
尽管你如此对我冷淡....
我也不会离开你....

2009-07-05T11:11:00.003+08:00

today woke at 6am meet ks and his gf with other ppl go chinese garden..
went to have a race event by T-net..
run halfway..
kimberly de bro canot make it...
thn went bak home..
quite wasted horh...
hmmm..
i veri tired sia..
me and kim de bro must climb th pagoda stairs..
7 floors..
climb till 2nd floor,
he buei tahan thn carry him climb up..
3floor lehx
reached th sixth floor thn ask him climb himself..
after come down...
hahas...
quite fun horh..
after tat ltr meeting my gal...
so...
shall not elaborate much...

2009-07-01T16:55:00.002+08:00

hmm...
school had started..
kind of comin bak to somewher familiar..
see alot of my friends..
thn got alot to chat,
anyway im goanna study hard luh..
catching up on chem and phy...
so mayb not goanna blog often..
half a year has past...
left barely 6months to study for EOY...
but will goanna work hard for it..
i dun wan retain luh...
chem teacher goanna change..
hate tat miss salina..
change to a teacher call mrs amin de..
he teach us ah..
veri fun worh...
not lyk th miss salina...
thn not sleeping for phy...
these 3days school goin smoothe for me..
looking forward on some days which can go out wit friends again...
shall not blog...
byes...

I love you baby....

2009-06-23T21:29:00.002+08:00

haii....
these few days never post cuz nothing happen?
rf,mh,elaine,rayner and other cell group member all go church camp le...
i think they should be having fun down there bah...
somemore,
Zhirong went to malaysia for 1 day tour...
and is lyk i have nobody to go out with...
thn these days jus at home plae audi loh...
wad else can i do sia....
anyway...
jus wait patiently for them to be bak bah...

My little princess...
Im waiting for you....
yearning for ur love...
i wan u to be by my side...
haven been contacting you since u went to malaysia...
i know u'r goanna be bak on friday..
but i super miss u lahs....
hope u make a right choice...
must takecare or urself while u r still at malaysia...
hmmm...
i love you more than u can imagine...

2009-06-20T22:30:00.002+08:00

Today's father day weekend at CHC was nice
and i hereby wish all father on thy earth a HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!
hmmm...
renfang and meihua they all going church camp..
sian luh...
left me alone...
i wan go de sia...
but mother dun let ><
anyway..
u all jus enjoy during th camp bah..
when u all come bak..
pls tell me how was it
okay?

i tot my little princess would understand me...
but she looks lyk she's doubting me...
if i would to lose her..
is lyk th fish has left th water...
i love her so much...
if still,
i would wanna tell her
i will be waiting for her ..
i will be there wher she wanted me to be..

My littl princess...
promise me dun leave me.....

2009-06-15T12:08:00.002+08:00

---HAPPY!---
my little princess has returned from her camp...
i told her i miss her alot alot,
she says she miss me alot too!~
hahas...
Just wanna tell her...
my heart always belongs to her...
she's th onli 1 tat can touch my heart...
and she is th onli 1 tat i can trust her to put my heart into her..
i will love her always,
take care of her when im with her,
dear...
im yours...
i promise i will not leave you alone...
believe me tat im th 1 u're looking for...
trust urself tat my heart is yours....

When i see you ,i scare i cnt see u anymore
when i sees u again,i scare i cnt hold u tight
when i held u tight ,i scare i cnt hug u
when i hug u ,i scare i cnt kiss u
when i kiss you ,i scare u will lose you
when i lose you ,i will cherish u more
when i cherish u more,there's nothing i need to be afraid of
Thats when i will held u tight,nvr ever let u go again anymore.....

I love You since 060709....

2009-06-12T16:51:00.003+08:00

im feeling bored and restless....
th feeling was lyk as if i had lost some1....
but its okay...
hmm..
she went for her church camp...
i missing her lyk crazy?
even though i hadn meet her once...
i didn felt any gap between us...
i wanna tell her tat...
i love her so much...
even we are not goanna meet up so much...
i hope she will feel my existence by her side..
seeing her doin every movement she does...
Making her feel tat im always by her side...
im sure she will miss me bak too?
i desire sumting...
i wanted to see her...
i want to convince her im reliable...
some1 she can rely...
a shoulder tat she can lie on for her life..
a hand she can held for life...
a hug she will always remember...
a love tat will make her felt loved....

My little princess...
i'll be arriving at ur palace to pick u up...
trust me with all ur heart...
as i have made my decision....

Love story- Taylor swift
A song i wanted to dedicate to her....

2009-06-11T12:29:00.002+08:00

To someone who is goin to read tis.....
Im goanna tell her,
even though we are not tat close...
even though i cnt be her boyfriend...
i would always be there for her..
wher she wanted me to be,
for there,i would be there..
when she's sad,
my shoulder would be her best comfort....
when she's happy,
i would feel th same as she is...
i would try my best to fulfill wad she wants..
never ever thought of disappointing her...
never ever thought of leaving her alone...
i will never forget her....
even though we cnt see each other often,
i will not let the love between us fade...
instead,i would make it more fonder....
look it as a challenge,
never think of giving up for each other...
i want her to know im reliable...
if nobody is ever goana help her,
i would be th first to stretch out my hand,
ask her to hold on tight...
never let go...
if she need a hug to heal her heart...
i would be th first to offer my hug to her...
my love for her starts from here....
if she had felt th love from me....
i would tell her ,
i would do wadever she wants me to do...
whether to be or to not an item...
i would never deline her wish or im i goanna accept it...
i would wanna be her best buddy for her life...
if she wanted me to be her boyfriend...
i would say...
i jus wan to be her best boy-friend.....

A couple of words dedicated to my beloved girl in my heart.....

2009-06-08T11:38:00.002+08:00

hi guys...
jus came bak from camp...
if i were to say...
i would use 1 word to desribe it..
"torturious"
anyway lets not mention about my camp thingy...
ytd..
after returning from my bloody camp...
i went bak home have a clean bathe...
thn went to meet zhirong...
after tat hav a change of plan...
went to brian house first to bring all the foods and things...
on the way ther....
me , ashley, zhirong were joking on each other...
alot laughs and funs...
reached ECP...
there were no pit for us...
so we have to BYOP(bring your own pit)
thn andy take some trays put the charcoal thn lyk tat BBQ luh...
but thank God...
beside us de BBQ pit...
th ppl were leaving thn move it to there...
the BBQ were successful...
after tat...
me,zhirong,meihua,renfang leaving at 10.30pm...
so walk walk...
thn home sweet home..